Fucking Inspired.

Evenin'.

Inspiration can come from the strangest of places, May it be a speech from a leader of societies, Or a man singing on the street; working on his talents to sustain himself.

People inspire me; The people around me. People with amazing smiles, or positivity. Or even people that can muster up the courage to look strong through a storm.
Even my mum is a person like this, because the hardest thing you can possibly do is the laugh your way through cancer.

She is one of the greatest inspirations in my life, and probably a major reason I w

ent from depression to absolutely loving every moment of my life.

When you see the world is all its complexity, and how valuable every little piece of potential is, you learn to love every second of it.

Weekend has been pretty good; Love my friends and met a lottttt of new people, Friday/saturday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtchxVXy8qk



This song, a remix of Ed Sheeran, is one of the reasons I can love rappers. When a guy can actually sing about something that fucking matters.

Hats off to this guy.

Oh and this kitty made me smile.

He so sophisticated.

Night world.

ps, Write our book.
pps, Gone back to writing music again(;

That's why they call me a Young Gun.

Say Something; I'm Giving Up On You.

Ever caught a butterfly? You wouldn't hold it by a wing, so you can watch it in pain without a real chance to fly. You wouldn't grip it so tight that it dies away. But you can't help but reach out for it in the first place.

I haven't posted in sooooo long. Not that I really care, random people that care nothing about the shit I ramble read it so oh well :).

Life is good sometimes, Holidays and Festival this summer has actually completed me, aha. Been quite an awesome summer, not going to lie.

The title is from Ian Axel. I prefer Greg Holden's version, they perform together a lot :)

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3Yxl-C9v5E

Take a listen if you bother to read this :')

School tomorrow.

Meeeeesh.

Mergle.

Nightt World. (:

ps Write my book.

Re-Living.

Hello.

Last few days have been weird, but I don't know.

Been watching DaveDays again, Haven't done that in so long! Aha.

Such a cute song too :) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtIfld84Ydw
The girl is so cute as well. And Dave is just a legend.

Olive You.

Just a little post today.

I want a sunny summer please.
Just sayin'.

Night little world :).

'Cause You Are My Heaven.

When things can never come back; You wish that you fought for something.
Don't back down, you'll just lose it all.

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.

I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't take what you don't need, from me.

Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.

Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't take what you don't need, from me.

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.

It's just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven

I'm still obsessed with this song.

I might be doing GCSEs but still slightly nervous.

Goodbye, It's like wishing for rain as you stand in the desert.

Oh, What I'd give to go back in the past, What I'd give to see you smile.
I hate this life, These backstreet deals, These late night drugs.
I'm living the high life, Just lying; passed out in the gutter.

Listen To My Lullaby Of Lies.

Hello Little World;

It's been far too long since I posted, because of being busy, seeing people, and life and such.(:

Well, took the day off today to do art. Which sort of went well? Still got more than I can do even if I don't sleep at all..
I'm so screwed, aha. But oh well, it's just art; Really shouldn't leave things to the last moment, ey?
I've written the start of a post about a billion times, but never actually finished the post so I think I will do it this time.

This post is pointless though; Just sayin'. Have nothing to say, am just in a happy mood though. Doesn't seem to be rare any more, I always seem to be happy:).

Working on music projects & such; Getting loads of influences from different people.
Just found this guy today, through a friend of a friend sorta? Well goes to my school, aha.

Ron Pope - A Drop In The Ocean

This song mesmerises me; His voice is so clear and his words just flow with his accent.

'I was praying that you and me might end up together; It's like wishing for rain while standing in the desert.'

Also; spent all the time I've been doing art whilst UKFDubstep pissed off every person that walked past my house, it was way too loud. but it kept me working. I think I've done about 13 pages so far, 6 in my A3 book and 7 in my A4 book. Aha.

Yeah, I just realised you don't care:).
Well; That's my ramblings for today.

For some reason people still read this despite the fact I've not posted anything in ages, so thankyou for the random 6500 views, most of which I got after I stopped blogging. Aha, bless.(:

The sun makes me happy too.

Goodbye People; I've decided I will post later on as well, To make up for the lack of posts.
But while I'm doing art into the early hours of the morning:).

I'd Pick Up The Pieces Of You, If You'd Let Me; I'm Not Saying I'm Not Broken Too.
I Reckon We'd Fix Each Other, Back Up Our Hearts; This Sunset Looks So Perfect Yet One Piece Is Missing.
Darling; It's You.

A Beautiful Mess I've Made.

Evening;

Each blog post I seem to do, I find a few pictures before hand that I like that I want to add in; just some that weirdly inspire me.

Or make me feel something. It's odd, but some photographs are tantalisingly captivating.

I love it.

So I think I'll spam you loads of photos.

Mainly because I can; And I love them.I realise have my posts end up to be about this but it's what I love.

It's a massive part of me.

'Have you ever felt like you've had everything? That you were the top of everything; holding your life gripped in your hands. You didn't doubt anythin

g you did, you couldn't be touched.
You were invincible.
Silently perfect.If you do; Hold onto it. With everything you have.But my god, don't let it consume you and change you. Remember who you are.'

A part of a speech called 'Remember Who You Are'.
No idea why I added that, I just thought I would(:

Catch Me If You Can.

I realise how irrelevant this post is;

But I don't mind.

Goodnight.(:

Catch me if you can.

The Intensity Of The Storm.

Hello Little World;

Firstly; new layout? Like or not? I kinda like it but I'll think of something better soon, or more personal to me would be awesome.Although; I do love this layout.

It seems much nicer. Can wait for a summer one, this is my spring one. I bet I'll make a new one within a week though; It's kinda fun(:

This was just a quick post; I'll post properly tomorrow :).

Night.


We are all this Hell together; Don't doubt my heart.

I've Got A Hurricane Running Through My Veins.

Hello;

I keep starting to write posts, and then forgetting I've done it. So I guess I'll just not stop this time. I also read this back and noticed it's all shit, so sorry about that :').

I really want to get back into photography, properly. But I don't want to be one of those little amateur-ish type of photographers. I want to be good, really good. This has come on from all the little pictures sites that I have trolled across in my searches around the web.

I love little cute ideas.That just sorta look a

wesome too.
I have many ideas for things to do on my walls finally.
It's been a long time since I've been properly creative, but I reckon it's time to start again.
I've gotten back into; drawing, p

ainting, playing music, writing music, recording, photos, and a lot more.
Just because it so awesome; creative stuff makes my heart jump. Aha.

Cute things work too; This baby is far too cute.
These kinda things are getting me back into photography again as well. Absolutely love the style of a lot of people.

It might sound sad to some people, but I could devote my life to photography. A picture can hold so much; be so evocative to people, scream with colour or just retain an old memory.

One day, I want to have shelves piled up with old photo

albums and such of my life, just to say I've lived.
Just to show me.

I also noticed that I may be getting a much better job soon, and therefore will have a lot more spare money. So on top of having to pay for this stupidly expensive summer (if you don't know then, I might be planning to go to France wit

h the guys from school, going to Turkey with Tasmyn & Jonny & other people, Reading Fest, and A LOT of travelling around the country; Norwich, Eastbourne, Manchester, Lake Ditrict, parts of Wales, Bath, possibly Brighton and Southampton. And a few more. Aha, I'm not going to run out of money!) But if I do happen to have any money spare, I am totally hitting shops like mad; I want loads of

epic tops. Threadless. This is such a pointless blog post.

Most of mine are, but I like writing.(:
Well I guess I'll leave it there for today.
Ill post again tomorrow:).
Oh; and I'll redo the layout of this blog, It's not summery feeling enough, too gloomy for me.
ps; Welcome home Moon.

Enjoy your evening, Night.(:

I'm that little nerd you used to love; Now I'm that rebel you seem to have to fall for.

Be Careful Darling; I Break.

Hello;

I feel bad for not posting for nearly a week; Sorry about that!

Half term was actually so good in parts, way too busy really. I think I spent a lot of money too. Interesting win.

Half term was pretty raves, I posted on Tuesday? I think? From Doug's house, off my blackberry. And yeah, that night was pretty cool, not going to lie. Highlight was owning at N64 because I'm such a massive bamf at retro games :'). That was pretty sick; love from the guys there. Aha. Wednesday was waking up on Doug's floor in morning, freezing because I forgot to put a hoodie over myself, I'm so hardcore. I slept on floors 3 times this holiday. That definitely makes me hardcore..

After that; I headed into town to put some money in my bank, met up with Sarah for a bit and had a chat, which was nice. Haven't seen her for such a long time, but then headed home. Tidied. All that. Jonny and Tasmyn came round and we raved it up for a while. Played rockband because we are awesome.

Thursday? Thursday was my lazy day. (Y) I spent this day playing WoW.
I'm so cool. New graphics card, means I game. Hardcore style. It's not good.
I saw Matt for a bit, then wandered around the park with Amy; fun times. ;D

Friday, Eleanor came round in the afternoonish, We went around wokers, looked for movies and such. We ended up having loads of random chats as we went to tesco, Cotched on a bridge, scrumpled up on the floor in the cold. We headed back to mine, watched Zombie films through the night. Such a good night.

We then slept in for a bit, went to Reading for funsies. And I bought new jeans. They are rather nice, make me look taller. Eleanor stole my jeans, and we went to London. Eventually after a few trains, and undergrounds, We got to St Albans. Where Ross lives, and we got a lift to his and had a party thing at his with a load of our friends from ages back. I haven't seen that lot since the summer, sad times. Was lovely to see them all.

Slept on Adam's floor, woke up, and Adam made everyone pancakes because he's such a lad. A lot of love for Adam & Ross, amazing guys. Me & Eleanor went back through lots of train stations and things and came back to wokers for funsies. Then she had to go. /cry. <3 Today hasn't done much; oh well. Just scxhool and such. Now I'm 16. Win. Fun times aha.

Night people.

Maybe it's all for the best.

Forcing Hearts Of Stone To Beat Again.

Hello;

I said to someone that I would do the blog, but I never said what time. I guess half three is as good as any time :).

Today has been rather lazy; although I have definitely gotten back into guitar. I have very missed writing songs and such; it kinda reminds of summer, sitting in fields singing songs with people, and around campfire. The summer can speed up, no one likes this winter shit.

I met up with Alec today, and briefly Jonny, which was awesome as I walked with them from the station to their house. The chats are always epic with those two, a lot of love for the Hawkins family, they are lovely. Walked home with Sara, who I can't have seen for years; was lovely catching up:).

Tomorrow is hell busy; got something important in the morning, then off into wokingham for my first haircut in seven months. I can now genuinely pass off as a girl with my hair tied back. I totally appreciated my friends saying I make a pretty girl.. ;D. Then I'm off to bracknell to see Dempsey, help install a game, and then down to Reading to Doug's house to rave it up with the lads from school. Sounds good to me.
Then plans for pretty much everyday for the next week; which is awesome:).

Going to have some recording with Harry sometime too; so maybe look forward to some songs? Aha. They won't be too good, I'm not amazing at guitar and not so great at singing.

Hello audio editting.. ;D.

Also; going to do a collab with Laura over the magic of the internet because we are dead awesome.

www.youtube.com/apieceofawesome

I believe that is her youtube; lovely girl(:
Said I was one of the most positive people she knows; that made me happy, but she's only known me in the last few weeks, aha.

That's all; goodnight people(:

We are the ones in competition, but claim this ain't no race.
Take a breathe and explode like bullets tearing through the wind; Cut me up like a razorblade that tried to separate the skin.
We found a world worth dying for; we've been battered so hard we don't feel it anymore.
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

The Captain Of The Ship.

Hello;

I have to say thanks to my friends that keep linking my blog to theirs, it's quite cool to see that loads of people are blogging, so I may as well make a big list! :

-Harry Davidson [BLOG] [BAND PAGE] [BAND TWITTER]
-Thomas Joy [BLOG] [VLOG] [TWITTER]
-Arron Dempsey [BLOG]
-Louise Dutton [BLOG]
-Eleanor Daintree [BLOG]
-William Davison [BLOG] [VLOG]-Devon Sanders [BLOG]
-My mum.(: [BLOG]
-George Stow [BLOG]
-Nnamdi [BLOG]

I'm sure there's more; there definitely more. If I didn't say just give me a shout.(:

I've want to re-vamp my room for ages, and make something awesome out of it, but I never seem to have enough ideas. I have a lot of space and enough time really, but I can't decide what to make.

Today was just a shoutout to people; As Im tired, I'll blog tomorrow properly.

Oh Little Lion Man.

Night people.

ps, My half term is dead busy, Im actually excited for loads of stuff. All is good.

Imagine the satisfaction when you make it.

Collecting Your Jar Of Hearts.

Evening Little World;

I've noticed that close to so many people are starting blogs, from my school friends to my mum. It's interesting to see peoples' lives, and delve into lives of people I barely know, to find out there are insanely interesting.

I love the idea of keeping doing childish things, like sitting inside duvet covers telling stories. And making forts out of furniture. Creating little imaginary worlds and the such. Call me crazy, but I love it. I still do a lot of it.

This comes from talking about childhood stuff with the guys from school; about what you might have missed out on. This summer I want to do childish things, just because I still can. One day I'll be too old to make forts, but I'm still young, so live it up right?(:


I also want to re-do my room, and make it look as awesome as possible.
But this will be done after I get a better/another job, need to go to connections and get this job. Will be awesome to have a lot more money.
Cant wait really. ;D

Such a win.
Also; been getting back into music again properly, since listening to Watership a lot, and my mates recording a lot. I thought I would go back to it, I do love music. :)
Harry is the guy that sort of made me want to get into it again, tis from watership and a massive legend. Click his name to read his blog.

Thats all for tonight.
Night people.

ps http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dm41zP_RZfo&feature=feedu awesome cover by Sam Tsui.
And also, boredom? Havent played guitar properly in a long time, so did this a few days ago:) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_e3gihgbuNI
Unlisted so doesn't appear on youtube.
It's a cover of Shooting Star by Air Traffic. Beautiful song, I don't do it justice, but still.

It's Some lovely person birthday, Shoutout to Michael :) Tis his birthday. He's 7.

Weep little lion man; You're not as brave as you were at the start.

Valentines Day? Psh.

Evening;

I don't think I've actually done much today really, so that was wasted. But oh well; randomly talking to like a billion different people on the phone because I felt like a chat, so that was nice. Not sure why I was in a talky mood(:

Like most people, Valentines day doesn't mean much to me. Fun?
Although It's quite cute seeing all the couples, but everyone has plans pretty much.

I've got nothing much to say today really; so I'll post stuff tomorrow when I will have something to say about how I failed all my exams from last week. Woo ;D

Oh; and yesterday was pretty awesome, went into Reading with Louise, and saw Ellie & Peter a few times. Was fun.

Goodnight people(:

ps, These are my mates http://www.facebook.com/pages/Watership/186854821347733
Definitely listen to them, they are recording soon, and they are sooo good. Awesome, thanks(:

Is this just another scene from the movie that you've seen one hundred times?

What Sends You To War.

Hello;

Sorry I haven't posted recently, exams and stuff. Although, I'm not going to say I was revising because that is a massive lie, hence I've probably failed a few exams this week. It's not that important, and the only one that has mattered was a real German exam, which went pretty well.

Exams are dead boring, although I have been able to have so much time off. Unlike most other people, I don't have a full day this week at all because I take Music & Art. Such a win. Despite that, I still didn't revise for anything and therefore probably failed.

The week has been alright I guess.. Strange in a few ways, but still. Tuesday had to have the best lunch I've had in a while, with: pizza, chips, bacon toast and the such. And then playing around at dougs on his xbox and drums and stuff(Y). That was pretty awesome, but apart from that, I've just been going home early. Wednesday, I went to school. Did an hour of chemistry and was coming home on a train at like 1040. It was pretty awesome, went out and saw alec(Y). He's pretty awesome, and a lovely guy. We raved it up a bit and such.

Sorry that I am just updating you with really boring and mundane things but I haven't really done anything interesting recently. Oh well.

'Lying, encased in water, she held onto the wisps of breathe that entangled her throat. Desperation ran from her bloodshot eyes, she felt like nothing. His smile never left her mind; War never leaves the heart.'
-The Diary Of Those Lost From War.

Okay, I'm walking along in Reading writing this, and it's raining. Dead hard. Not good><. I'm also slightly late for my history exam, so this day has went well so far. ;D Also, I remembered that my bike is broken again, so that fails.

Oh well. I'll post later on. Wish me luck in the exams I get to fail today(Y).

Goodbye.(:

Ps again, sorry for the boring post.

You won't remain.
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

No, No Darling; Don't You Forget That I'm Still The Same Boy.

Hello;

Today has been slow and tired. And that's why I'm probably going to try and sleep straight after this.

My phone is fucked up and doesn't get texts from people sometimes, and has decided to screw up loads. Along with it's msn where I was getting messages around 3 hours after I sent them. ¬¬

Oh well(:

Post tomorrow; too tired.

Goodnight.

ps, I've stopped worrying so much, it's weird but I feel a bit more like me again(:
It's all coming back; it's been too long.

Make it mutual.

We Said Nothing Phases Us Anymore; We've Seen It All Before.

Evening;

Today has been a pretty relaxed day, even though I thought it would be far worse with school. It turned out okay.(: Casually cycled into school latish, wandered into English then physics, chemistry and history.

Been making plans to do things over half term and stuff with people, so life is looking good(: Im excited for half term really, although I have exams all of next week, how fun! ¬¬
Been making plans for summer as well, so yeah things are going well.

Been asked by Chris to do artwork for his band, I actually really want to. But need ideas, and feel weirdly uncreative so maybe not tonight. But I would love to give him something amazing for his band(:

Night little world.

Something in my heart tonight; Feel it in my soul. Let you see my wildest side, if I can see your bones. Now I drink coffee; Not just Ribena. And I like it.

Summer Sky

Hello;

Again I forgot to blog, I suck at keeping this up. Oh well, I'll try to keep it up better from now.

Yesterday didn't entail much, although a massive shout-out to Harry and Josh, who played on the radio. They were actually so awesome, and it was pretty funny to listen to. They are also extremely talented, and they are recording soon so when they have, I'll post some itunes links to where you can buy their music, which I would! It's rather amazing.

Apart from that, I had school which wasn't really much. Math challenge? Such a rave.

Finally, saw Thomas in the evening for a casual stroll with pretty in-depth life conversations. We were both tired but somehow got loads of energy by the end? Weird, but good.(:

Will post later!
Goodbye.

Sing me something soft, sad and delicate. Or loud and out of key, sing me anything.

Hello;

Sorry I didn't post last night, just forgot about it and just remembered now. It was a pretty slow day anyway, there's not much I did really.

Had a music mock and physics course work and a math mock and disecting an eye in biology. It wasn't too bad I guess.

Nothing much to say about yesterday, although I've had 'Have faith in me' by a day to remember in my head for days and I love the song, but its gone obsessively through me.

One of my friends, Chris, accidentally sent me a text saying he want to dedicate a song to Ben White. It was going to be a surprise, but he sent it to the wrong person.
It still means the same to me, he is an amazing friend.

I'll post later tonight.

Goodbye.

Have faith in me.

The Travelling Boy.

Evening.

Your eyes scream that you are free;

Yet these chains, they bound you to me.
Oh little travelling boy, do you not fear?
Do you not fear the world?
Let me see through your eyes.

I spent about half an hour drawing this, and it made me feel like me again. The one I've wanted to be for a long time, the same person I was about a year ago. But I know I'll lose that feeling by the time I go to bed. From when I used to love to draw, and run about and had so much energy.

I drew this to avoid physics coursework and music revision really.

Odd day, one lesson. Then a level choices. Fun?

Goodnight.

ps, Tonight I feel odd, weirdly odd. I think it's a good odd, but I'll sleep on it. I want to be what I was, it would be fun. Maybe that's what I need. Hmm.

She wishes that God would give her answers; And make her feel beautiful. We are, we are all innocent.

Noticing The Little Things That Slip Under Your Surface.

Good Evening,

Today started off weirdly. Not good, in fact. Sitting in a class room, with a class discussing funerals and the afterlife. And my mind turns to you. Someone I lost, that I miss. So my day didn't start off so great. That lesson totally threw me.

After that, I think the day was fine for the most part, and then ended pretty well.(:

Ending with art at school, before going home and not doing much, saw Jack for like half an hour and then headed off to Louise's to watch Glee and such.(: I enjoyed this evening.

Timothy is a scamp, but ever so cute. I'll find a cute picture of him.

He's so cute.(:

Well, Goodnight.

ps, Still waiting for summer.

It sounds so sweet coming from the lips of an angel, hearing those words it makes me weak.

What Takes Your Breath Away?

Hello;

I'm actually tired for once, so I'm going to make this short and post tomorrow. I weirdly have a lot to say but no energy to say it.

Yesterday was nice, I went to work and then did nothing for ages, and then went and saw Jonny for a while, and then headed over to toms where we made pasta and a chocolate mug cake. Then watched some of a film and I fell asleep and stayed the night (Y). How lovely of Thomas(:

Then today, Thomas set me an alarm for work, had some toast and wandered off to work, where I spent my morning with Jason (my boss) at work, we have chats. They are particularly awesome, I enjoy working on a sunday; despite it starting at 6am. Then I pondered around my house, had a shower, before going to Louise's and watched a film or two and played with Timothy, was awesome(Y).(:

And now. Now I shall tidy.(:

Goodnight.

ps Have you ever had your breath taken away? What takes your breath away?

She was only 17, when she threw away everything.

Sometimes The Water Is Always Hazed; It Doesn't Matter. Just Swim.

Evening;

I've been watching through all the first 2 series of skins, and being obsessively drawn into it. Far to addictive to watch, weird that I never watched it when it was on tv. Even though everyone told me to. My room is a huge mess; and I keep meaning to tidy it and I'm just losing loads of stuff. Its totally not clever. But oh well; I'll do some art as well(:

There's nothing to really say right now; I need to do a lot of work.

So I bid you farewell.
Sleep well.
I'd really like to for once. please? thanks.It's really not fun not sleeping :(.

Excited for tomorrow.(:

Goodnight.

Lie with me under the sky; Forget the world. Let's pretend like we just met. (Distil e Ocibro - Killer Eyes)

Car Crashes And Silhouettes.

Hello Little World;

I forgot to blog yesterday, and 3 people actually pointed this out to me, people that I don't talk to very often so that was kinda nice!

Today has been a rather bland day of school; which nothing ever seems to happen. Although, I wouldn't give up most of the conversations I have in lessons, some people are just awesome to be with in lessons.

Getting addicted to a game, and it's not good that I'm getting addicted, but it leads to massive skype calls which are just so funny, its pretty awesome talking to the guys from school a lot more. It's kinda like hours of phone calls, but between about 3 or 4 of us, it helps doing work as well, I can talk to people and get a load of revision and art done.

I have had my snake out for the last 2 hours or so. And yes. I have a snake. He's there in the photo, Just took it. He's pretty cool, lush colours.

That's all for tonight really, I'll write a better blog tomorrow. Half day of school tomorroww.

Nightt.

The rest of my life can't be compared to this night. They bring me to you. (They Bring Me To You - Joshua Radin)

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.

Evening,

Today has been one of those lazy days when nothing bad happens, but nothing good either really. A weird state of nothing..ness?

Fixed my bike after I destroyed myself and it. That fun, and apparently quite funny. I thought it was as well really.(;
Along with a 4 hour skype call. Mm.

Night, World.

Every day I get a little closer to the things that I wanna; Say with my life, in no particular order. I wanna make some sort of mark so the worlds knows I was here ( Sometimes You Can Forget Who You Are -Fm Static)

Halting A Race With No Finish Line.

Evening.

Paint covered body, a completely messed up room, and stuff everywhere. I'm not even sure what I did. Although, I can say it wasn't revising for my mock tomorrow. Clever. (Y) Today has been quiet, with school and such. Along with realising that I have to do so much art, I'm probably going to die.

Although; I have been looking at my camera, longingly. It wishes to be used far more, and I said I would but haven't got round to starting it.

I just checked the camera. Horrified face. Ken and I were bored and took random photos. They scare me.

I'm thinking about designing a t-shirt for the website Threadless, and it seems like a pretty good idea. Along with your t-shirt getting printed, you get a load of money. I have no chance in getting that, but there's no harm in trying I guess. I have a few ideas so far. Sat drawing them in German.

Oh, and someone drew me a while ago. Despite not looking very much like me, I think it's awesome.

Well, I need to shower, badly. Covered in paint.

Goodnight.

Don't fly so high; Little Bird (This Is Who We Are - Cartel)

I'm Thinking Of You; Are You Thinking Of Me Too?

Hello.

Today wasn't particularly interesting, but involved school as usual and such, where we've decided to make the portable N64 so we can play it in break & lunch. I've never felt cooler. Honestly, being a geek is amazing.

Other than that, I've done nothing else really. Thomas and I wandered around in the cold, through the fog. It was extremely idyllic and distant, if not otherworldly. Talks and such, it was nice. If not freezing, so we went back to mine. Toasties & Tea. Lovely.

Now contemplating whether to do work, or not.
I have some things running through my mind.

Goodnight.

ps, What would you fight Tooth and Nail for? A question that I was asked this morning.

Picture is an old drawing; Probably from about a year ago. Line is from the notebook.

I will reach for your hand; As I walk in the dark. ( Take Me Home - Futures)

Losing Sight Of What You Want.

Hello.

No sleep. Died lying in bed in the morning wondering if it was really worth getting up. Apparently so.

Today was just another day, school with rain and such things. It wasn't particularly interesting. Religion, German, Physics and Art. Nothing special really.

I actually have no motivation to post anything today.
Distant mood.

Yet the sound of the raining is calming.

Goodnight.

You could have it all if it matters to you. (Golden Touch - Razorlight)

We Ran Too Fast; Our Legs Never Caught Up.

Evening World.

Today has been another lazy day, but it has been rather nice. I went to work dead early in the morning again, but remember to wake up this morning(Y). Stayed at work til about 11 with Jason, discussing the idea of making a handheld Nintendo 64. Or gamecube. I then decided I actually wanted to do this. But originally I thought that the console couldnt be opened, apparently I was wrong. I melted a pen into the shape of the special nintendo screws and undid them all. Such a win.
After a long time, I got rid of all the excess shell of the thing and got it running and working with just the main components.
I believe I dropped it. I, therefore, half broke it.

Such a wasted day.

But other than that, its been okay. Done some revision, but nothing much really, and my room is a tip (Y).

Been watching youtube clips to keep me entertained. Tis fun listening to people.

Deciding whether to actually vlog, loads of people are now. I said I would ages ago and never did. Hmm.

Well today wasn't interesting enough for an interesting post but oh well.

I'll try and fix the N64 thing. But I doubt I can. *sad times*

Goodnight.

These birds don't fear the sky

Let's Crash Tonight; The Drink's Been Good And Our Bodies Are Tired, So Lie With Me Here?

Hello(:

Today has been pretty awesome, although I slept through work. Definite fail right there. But I then wandered through the freezing cold windy morning To Thomas's house for breakfast and a nice little catch up, which was lovely, he, himself, is ever so lovely(: Watched hustle then strolled back home.

Then Louise and I took the train into Reading and headed straight for the piercing parlour, where Louise got her nape pierced. It is seriously awesome, you should check it out on her blog.(: That was pretty cool and apparently it wasn't too bad getting it pierced. We then went straight into Nandos. They are amazing, and the food is amazing and we were talking about how it's actually pretty cheap, and yet AWESOME. (Y) That was a lovely meal, I like having lunch with Louise, she is awesome.(:
We then looked at a few shops and headed home, watched Ten things I hate about you, its an old but pretty awesome film. Very cute scenes in it(:

I have been looking back at designs that my brother has done (I think I mentioned him on here before, so Hi if you read this again Josh!) and they are beyond awesome. Here is his website if you want to check any of his stuff out.(:

Today has been pretty awesome, thanks for reading!.

Goodnight.

ps Image is my brothers Butterfly with candles, with I helped with a little bit. It's awesome.

OH AND HERE IS HARRY'S BLOG, HE IS AN AWESOME GINGER AND YOU SHOULD READ ABOUT HIM. ;D (Y)

I got the concept; And came to the conclusion that the top floor was just an illusion. (Dare4Distance - NeverShoutNever)

Signal Fires.

Hello World,

Today has been sloww, and I didn't really accomplish much. Most days amount to that, but that's all really. Ken came over after school and we raved it up for no apparent reason, we have such random conversations. They can lead to anything. He is a rather awesome person. Stalk him if you like? (ON BOOKFACE).

Then saw Tom and had a catch up and such, was lovely. Despite it being half eleven, and dark and wet.

My kitten is currently in my room, running around, meowing like crazy. Climbing absolutely everywhere. He is beyond adorable. He reminds me of a confused toddler. He is exploring around my room and generally crashing into everything and pulling everything around. Still extremely cute.

I am covering my wardrobe with photos soon, and start scrap-booking I think. But I need to start taking my camera places, so you know. I might not be that committed to it. But we'll see how it goes.

Love the life you live, you only get one shot.

But always learn from your mistakes, like I said. You only get one shot.

Going to Reading tomorrow, Im excited.

Goodnight.(:

Chemicals That Run Through Our Veins; These Drugs Make Us Go Insane.

Hello World.

Its rather early but still; Hello(:
I heard thunder earlier, and I am a fan of thunder. And lightning. So stunning if you manage to see it.

I'm rather happy right now, And I'm excited for the weekend.(Y)

Well; Today, I sat through school with crappy lessons sorta. And half fainted half through art, I might have just fallen asleep. but I wasn't sleeping? I dont know. Then I managed to cycle to the station, 100m from the station, fall off my bike, spin the front wheel all the way round and screw up the chain and gears, and break the reflectors off. And screw up my hands, there are nice marks that make me look like I've been crucified(Y). I then missed the train. Woo? ;D.

I got some personal good news today that shall not be shared. But yes, good news. Despite reading it at about midnight because I didn't notice I had it.

AS IN EVERY POST IM EXCITED FOR THE SUMMER. It will be so good. I can't wait.

Oh, adn going to reading on saturday. Im excited :3 It will fun.

Goodnight reading people.

ps I'M PROUD OF MY YEAR 7 PHOTOGRAPHY, I'M SO ATTRACTIVE.

pps I forgot who I used to be. I want to be like him again, he was rather awesome.

Don't want another pretty face; I don't want just anyone to hold, I want you and your beautiful soul. (Beautiful Soul - Jesse McCartney)

Slow Dance With Me In The Sun's Glow.

Hello.

It's kinda nice that people have stopped to tell me that they read my blog. Including Devon in Math. Who was far to over-enthusiastic about it, but it made me smile nonetheless. Just nice to see that some people like reading it too(:

Today has been okay, woke up 5 minutes before my train was

meant to leave, and it was delayed which was okay. Walking through Reading with headphones in, I totally felt like I was in a weird film as I wandered down the drenched roads.

School was pretty much as normal as it gets. Chemistry, Math, Music and Physics. Basically, as soon as math was over, the day was finished. Music is dead easy, and physics. We did something on space. I wasn't listening. Talking to Ashton about New year and Fest. Was a good lesson(Y).

My summer is getting more and more anticipated. 11 weeks. Planning trips to places. I honestly can't wait. I realise I've said this in every post pretty much but IT'S SO EXCITING!

Standing on the train home, talking to Ken about photos and such, wanting to start making scrap books and such. It sounds like a plan(Y). I also intend to cover my wardrobe in photos. Just because I can(:

That's all for Todayy; Thanks. G'Night.

ps I love photos of people dancing.
Oh, and old conversations can be nice to read.(:

Give me something to believe in. (Something To Believe In - FM Static)

Exceptionally Underwhelmed.

Evening.

Firstly, some people are spiteful. They disgust me with the things they can say. People who can easily hurt those around them, and I don't even know who they are.

But today has been good, I think. The morning was mundane, as I didn't have school. But I saw Louise in the evening, and watched 90210, and gave Timothy his run and such. Was a lovely evening.

Each night appears to be more infuriating than the last. I am not sleeping close to at all any more. But oh well. I'm still functioning(Y). Dead set on the weekend though, I'd rather not pass through the next few days. I don't see the point, I don't think they are anything special. Sorry to disappoint you, the next few blogs posts may not be that exciting.

I've decided to watch the Blair Witch Project again. It's not the scariest thing ever, in fact it's not really scary at all. But it's something to do, seeing as I don't particularly understand it.

Sleep well People.

ps, Life is ever so confusing.

When we both know there’s so much love clenched within our fists. (Goodbye Waves And Drive Ways - The Rocket Summer)

Flare Up The Campfire; Bottles To The Sky. Let's Scream Because We Can, Because We're Alive.

Hello World.

Recently I've been so hyped up for the summer; I honestly can't wait. 11 weeks of it. I want to go out so much, in the sun again. I can't wait. Short tees, shorts and warrmmthhhh. Honestly can't wait.

Today hasn't come to much but I don't really mind, nice having days where I don't have to do much. School was basic as usual (Y). Although, Im staring at my room, and it looks like world war 3. Seriously, I can't see my floor.
Also my hair is getting longer and longer. I think it's growing. It needs to be cut. Badlyyy.

BACK TO THE SUMMER(Y).

I can't wait. There's loads to look forward to as well(Y). And people are planing holidays and such things, so I hoping to get a better job or just save up from this job. Then I can go places. Such as the beach(: And my brother is getting married, which I am actually really excited about. Him and his fiancée really fit together perfectly.

Well; I have no more to say really today. post tomrrow? Indeed.

G'Night.

Photo has nothing to do with anything; I thought it was awesome(:

THOMAS JOY HAS A VLOG AND THIS IS A SHOUT OUT TO IT. WATCH IT?

Vlog Episode 1
&
Vlog Episode 2

Watch them. ;D

We saw the summer sky and we, we drank the silver skies (Boys Will Be Boys - Every Avenue)

This Winter Is Cold; And We Aren't Heating Up.

Hello..

I'm starting to hate winter more, its cold when I go to work as always, nice and early (Y). So that's how I started my day, and stayed at work for a few hours, then home and doing work and whatever. Saw tom for like half an hour, and that's all I've really done today, some friends are playing poker tonight but I'm not really up for it.

An imagination is an incredible thing, something that makes us feel and create our own little worlds. And helps us to live our lives properly. At the moment, my imagination isn't helping me. I've been trying to do art with absolutely no creative flare at all..Kinda sucks. But merh.

I made Timthy a run today, Which im kinda proud of, I like it. And its kinda clever because it folds away and can be stored easy and such. I don't know why Im so proud of it, but it took like half an hour to make, if not a bit longerrr.

Yesterday was nice though. I liked yesterday. Saw Louise and such, and yeah. 'Twas lovelyy. I enjoyed yesterday a lot:).

Oh, and I used to wear a key around my neck, and I've decided to do it again. I just like it for some odd reason.

Goodnight People.

Someday both of us will die, so I was thinking, I could be your semi-perfect guy. (Longshot - Nevertheless)

This Is A Call To Arms; I Beg Of You.

Hello Little World;

My Friday night has pretty much amounted to nothing; but the rain has shown me wanting summer even more. Although, I was hoping to sit inside and hear the water press against the window. There is something calming about listening to rain, something mysterious I guess.

Along with listening to millions and millions of acoustic covers of songs I love, some really old ones. Songs seem to make me remember things, little memories, or people that I have heard the song with.

Or just times that the music reminds me of. I find it strange, but it's like looking into the past for me.

Some people also write lyrics like no one else, they are so unique, so incredible and hold value compared to the shit that is passed through most pop music.

For me, people like Mayday Parade and Greg Holden write such amazing lyrics.

I envy them greatly.

I am still so looking forward to the summer; and getting a job. I really want to go somewhere... different in the summer. There's people I'd like to take with me to.

There's a world out there I no longer want to miss.
Tonight I don't think I'll sleep so well; I have far too much energy!

Goodnight People.

How she hoped he missed her, 'Cause God; She missed how he would kiss her (Champagne's For Celebrating - Mayday Parade)

Sunbeams & Cold Nights.

Bonjour Monde.

The first day back at school has made me realise I need to start working a bit harder, but I guess that shouldn't be hard. I pretty much coast along with school, but I guess most people do right now.

I am going to start getting my camera out more, I am thinking of getting back into photography(: I want some really nice pictures, just things to remember, and keeping memories. That's what photos are for, ey? That and I need a lot for art as well, so might need some creativity!

I talked with someone today, and we talked about reliving the past. Having the ability to warp back into it, and relive moments over and over. We thought this could cause everlasting happiness when needed but would cause an eternal sunshine of a spotless mind in a way. We still want to be able to relive our past.

That is why I want more photos.

I can't wait for summer, the sunshine will be greeted very well.

The longer nights, hot evenings, and general warmth and sunshine. It better be like that. I'm hoping(Y).

Goodnight People.

ps, I want to go to the beach this summer, once or twice.. Or possibly abroad. I've been given the option(Y)(:
And I didn't take the photo, but I wish I did.

I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason. (Cute without the E - Taking Back Sunday)

Set Sail For Uncharted Waters; Maybe We'll Find Home.

Hello.

People often wonder when they are going to die. Thinking if they will die alone, distant in a hospital bed, quietly without any screams. Or if they will die heroically, with the world on their shoulders, fighting for the things they believe. Some people, the strongest of people, die because of someone else's selfishness. That they could take someone else's life. I got a phone call from someone I wasn't expecting to, this evening. Just reminding me of how life is so unfair to some people.
This evening has amounted to doing art, thinking about things.
It's been okay.

Enough with random ramblings, today has been art and not much else. Wathcing tv shows, and the last day of the holidays.
Oh, but I walked Louise to school ,which was nice. Despite it being early, I like it.
In the past week, I've watched 2 series of Bigbang theory and the most part of 2 series of Two and a half men, and 7 films. It's been odd watching so much, I should really go out more. But yeahhh.

This has been an odd evening, but still. Just not feeling like going back to school><. But there's a lot of hope:).

Goodnight people.

The photo is one I took a while ago, it reminds me of how intricate the world truly is.

ps Harry said he would start blogging, but I don't have a link yet. I will post one when he does. He's very interesting and also ginger. That makes him awesome.

Chairs thrown and tables toppled. Hands armed with broken bottles. Standing no chance to win but we're not running. We're not running. (Behind Closed Doors - Rise Against)

You're A Dead Man Walking; Walk Away With Your Life.

Hello People;

I can't say I don't enjoy lazy days, but I should really do more. Although I am now doing art, so I'm actually using my time wisely. Despite this; I am extremely far behind.. Oh well. I'm not too phased.

I didn't really do much today, walked Louise to school, sat around watching videos and doing work again, and then saw Louise again in the evening, and spent the evening playing with Timothy and such things, was a lovely evening.

Still stuck on Greg Holden though; can't stop watching his videos. It's probably not good but oh well. I like them(:

Final day of holidays tomorrow; And mocks ina month, which isn't too bad. It's been a nice holiday for the most part, and was lovely seeing family at christmas.

I honestly can't wait for hot nights, and summer evenings. It's printed in my mind that it will happen soon enough.

Good night People.

Oh; and the photo is Ash; a male gecko of Louise's. Took the photo while I looked after him over the summer.

We're nothing short of invincible. (Reinventing Your Exit - Underoath)

Let's Not Fight, Tonight; Just Dance With Me.

Hello World.

Yet another lazy day; but I will be spending most of my night tonight doing art. But I have a million videos on my computer of different tv series and different films to keep me going.

Both my brother and sister have gone back to their houses today, so it's a bit quieter but about the same as usual. There's a lot of space in my house as well, so I can shove junk in their rooms while their gone. Im so nice. ;D

I had dinner at Louise's & Timothy's house, and it was lovely to see her, and we watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, (which is violently creepy...) with her family and a few neighbours. I have missed her while she has been gone, and it's nice that she's back. I do love spending time with her.

Recently; I have a come back across Greg Holden, here is his youtube channel. His set of videos called 'This Is Not My Living Room' are amazing. I love his music, and he is extremely talented.

Good Evening people.

ps You are my muse.

I'll hold you tighter than you'd like. (Drive Drive Drive - Greg Holden)

Think Of You Later In My Empty Room.

Second day of 2011? It's actually not that exciting. I'm not excited really.

Although, firstly, I do regret having a job that starts at 6. I mgiht have been up already and before that, but I still don't want to have to go out in the cold at that time, it's not as fun as it sounds. And It doesn't sound fun.

I've spent another day watching films and doing pretty much nothing, which can't be good. Except getting a gargantuan amount of films onto my pc, and watching them one by one. I planned to do work whilst watching them, that never happen. I doubt it will.

Timothy has returned back home today, so he's back off with Louise, but it was lovely for a visit from her and a catch up with timothy so he could crap all over my desk and run randomly around my room. He seemed to be pleased with himself.

I've realised that the last few days have amounted to films, a small amount of art and a lot of thinking and random drawings. Nothing major or even remotely interesting.

I was thinking about doing huge scale drawings.. But no idea what to draw..

Maybe my creativity is being drained.

Goodnight World.

If the sun sets a mile ahead; Maybe then we can pretend that all of our lives could be perfect in the end. (I Can't See Myself Getting To Sleep Tonight - Valencia)

Sometimes There's Someone That Can Always Keep You Going; I Pray You Find Your Someone..

Hello Little World of 2011.

Everyone is talking of fresh new starts, and new ideologies and talking of things to come. Yet for some, another year passes. A year that they might not want to endure, for those who have lost those they love. For those that are struggling through everything, and for those that aren't here anymore. I, myself, am living for a friend of mine that was killed in August, and his parents and family are taking Christmas and the New Year extremely hard.. Remember not everyone is thrilled to think of last year..

On a less depressing note; my day has yet again been lazy, with doing art work and about to go off to Thomas' for dinner. Which is rather nice. Especially after his New Years party thing, which was good, with a few friends. Was Lovely.

I'm still with a hodgeheg, who seems to love relieving himself on my desk. It's his way of showing his love. But, he's still a baby and his face remains to be far too cute for me to care. <3

My friend Will has been Vlogging for a while now, and I thought I might join the ranks with him. But its still just an idea.. I've tried it already; but I find it odd listening to someone on their own so I've tried different things to make it a little bit more interesting, and I do have a bit of editing experience that might help me. If I ever put the videos up, you'd understand. (HERE'S WILL'S VLOG CHANNEL)

Goodnight people, And welcome to 2011.

I'm still missing someone.

Have faith in me; I said I'd never let you go, And I never did. (Have Faith In Me - A Day To Remember)